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jade.wood
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posted 8/6/06 6:53 AM
im continually having doubts that after 10 yrs of research, that I can be a fully blown witch!I read and read every book available to me, written by british authors and tried it all out, as instructed but it never felt right for me. So now I just jolly along, and wait for something unaccepted to happen!Im a simple witch, I have a herbal patch, with lovely herbs in them, but I treat them like people, I might chat to them, but never touch or pick them, as I feel it might cut off their spirit.As a young child, of 7 , I lived with my granmother in oxford, and dailyw e would walk in a huge forest there, this is where I first learnt about nature. My granie was a sensitive and a psychic,in those days witch was a dirty word!She showed me lots of things, I was a sensitive child and learnt quickly,I learnt about the trees, and the furniture at home I sensed made out of wood still had the wood tree spirit in it,even though it had been taken from its forest and made into furniture. I went through life, touching wood, and sensing spirit. My teenage years UI ignored my senses, and also my married years and child bearing years, its only now when family have gone, that I have the time to sense again.Ive read all these books, and wonder if hede witch is the right modern word to describe a solitary person, why not a sensitive?I think now the word witchwas taken to scare people, and the christians use it in a bad fashion,as something nasty. To me a solitary wise person can also be a roaming gypsie lady who offers to sell you 3 bunches of heather for £3!The other day I saw ehr coming towards me, in weston super mare, and not ahving £3 to spare, I pressed a 50p coin into her hand.Here you are mother, buy something small for your grandchildren.... I told her, but she kept on insisting I buy her 3 bunches of purple heather, and I couldnt.I didnt want to annoy Proteus, so I left it.I thought i had renedered a good act, when it had only caused strife. so in future when I give away something, and Im always doing it,as I want to share everything, whilst I am alive in this life. I must be more concerned about who I give free presents to!Im sure the craft orginated from the free traveling gypsies,and they dont read books, its handed down to them their knowledge.Where are there any books that show this.....?I think none, I was going to buy a book by a romani, when we last visited the new forest, but the price was £15, too hi for me!I think for gifts of knowledge wisdom and power, we must look at nature, and within ourselves, if something doesnt work, discard it. If you are suspicous of someone else, run the opposite way. If it doesnt gell, throw it away. The thing with all this, is it has to feel good and right for the individual, if it doesnt, and to me it often doesnt, then its not for me.So Im not a witch, Im a natural practising sensitive person, and there are millions of thos around!Who says we need to be initiated into covens, to be that, noone, we need to learn so much nowadays, and not waste our time here on earth, listening to other people telling us what to do!IAM and I HAVE TO learn, MY LESSONS, through this life,my lessons, wont be the same as others. It all depends onw what I did in a preivious life,and noone knows that better THAN ME.So when the book says, this, or the shadows book says do this, I look on the internet and see what is this day celbrations really meaning.For myself, my partner Proteus, and for the world in general?
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