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| Author | Topic: WHO EVER SAID LIFE WOULD BE FAIR |
| Robin |
posted 12/15/03 9:42 PM
It seems like a million years ago that I was driving around San Ardo, California with Grandma Louise in the old red Ford station wagon. Every time Grandma had something special to tell me we would go for a drive. Just me and my Grandma with the windows down and the radio off. Grandma I love you so very much and miss you dearly. Now, if you have ever been to San Ardo, you know the whole town can be driven from end to end in five minutes or less. The population back then was probably 500 people and that included all the migrant workers. LOL. But, nonetheless, it was home, safe, and secure. KEVIN, I remember when you were born. I don’t know exactly how old I was (around 8ish, I suppose). Grandma and I loaded up in that old station wagon and off we went. Grandma drove me out to one of the fields (where carrots, lettuce, and tomatoes are grown) and proceeded to tell me that I had a new brother named KEVIN. She explained that my Dad was your Dad too. I remember listening to her every word and not saying a word. I think Grandma needed these talks as much as I needed to listen. I believe in Grandma’s eyes and heart it brought a connection to us and that she someday hoped we would all be together. After all, Bob, was her son ~ no matter where he lived, or what he had done. A few years later, I got another long drive around San Ardo with Grandma. This time she took me over behind the school and we parked the car. This wasn’t her usual M.O. but I am sure she had her reasons for the short drive. We sat there for a moment when Grandma told me that I had a new SISTER named KIMBERLY. I have to admit that I was pretty upset about this news. Not that I wouldn’t have loved a little sister but because I wanted to be DADDY’S LITTLE GIRL. I remember telling Grandma that it WASN’T FAIR that I didn’t get to be with my Dad. Why did he have to have another family anyway? Grandma reassured me that I was her SPECIAL LITTLE PRINCESS. She told me that my Dad loved me, but he just couldn’t be with me right now. I remember Grandma telling me that life isn’t always fair and we have to take what we can get. Words of wisdom from a wise woman. To this day, I am not sure if my Mom knew the reasons behind those long drives in San Ardo. I can only thank God every day that my Mother was courageous enough to let my sisters and brothers have a relationship with our Paternal Grandparents. Thank you Mom. I love you. Kimberly and Kevin thank you for being in my life. I know we are still learning and growing and that there are years and gaps that are missing. I know with time it will seem like we were never apart. Suzi and Glenda I was raised in a family that HALF and STEP aren’t acceptable so I would be honored to be considered just your SISTERS. To my brothers and sisters that I love dearly: Henry ~ May you know in Heaven how much I loved you BIG BROTHER and how you were the rock of GIBRALTAR to the entire family. I know you are my angel and protector. See ya in Heaven Bro. Janice Ann ~ You died before I was born but know that I always wondered if we looked alike. Must be a sister thing? Penny ~ The big sister I always wanted. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and teaching me some of your bad habits. Shame on you. Sister thank you for always be there when I needed you – like when I was homeless and needed a place to live. Thank you. Richard ~ The sane one. Your words of wisdom have always been a comfort to me. You think with your mind but follow with your heart. You were always the mediator for Matthew when he needed guidance. Thank you brother. I love you. Johnny ~ You have come along ways baby! I am really proud of you. I love you John. We have always had that special bond because we shared the same Mother and Father. You and I know that we love each other without it ever having to be spoken of. Hey, I have forgiven you for reading my diary. LOL. Lorri ~ My pride and joy. From the first day I saw you, I loved you. I will never forget our Great America Trip when I was 18 and you were 12. We had a blast! Sister, we think just a like and act just a like. Thank Goodness that we live 1500 miles apart. The same state couldn’t stand us. Thank you Lorri for being a friend as well as my sister. I love you. Jeffrey ~ My baby brother. Who would have ever known growing up that you would be where you are today. You were loved beyond words and spoiled to the core. Mom would make me take you outside to play when Penny wasn’t home so she could accomplish something. I hated that! I taught you how to swim in the pool on Madison. Jeffrey you were truly blessed beyond your years. You had sisters and brothers that adored you and a Mother and Father who worshiped you. I love you little brother. Thank you for taking care of Mom and being there for her. You have truly grown into a remarkable man. I love you! http://www.airrington.com |
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Kevin Airrington (Moderator) |
posted 12/15/03 10:43 PM
My Dear Sister Robin... Define fair? And exactly where do we get to the point in the road and look back and say, "that was not fair". Life...a journey through time…each passing day is an adventure...sometimes the journey takes us down a road that we did not plan for...and sometimes we are met with crossroads where we are forced to make decisions...do I take the red pill or the blue pill...do we go down the rabbit hole or hide in a rat hole... All this may seem unfair...all of this may seem as if we live our lives with uncertainty and disappointment....fairness is a state of mind...one door closes...another one opens...God sees a bigger picture...he knows the outcome of our last chapter...and God would never deal us a hand of cards we cannot play. (That’s pretty good...just made that up...maybe I will be quoted one day. LOL) I love you Robin, and I have no idea why we did not know each other when we were younger and why I was stuck with Suzi, Glenda and Kimmie....LOL just kidding...but I do know this...we are together now...ALL OF US. I also don’t understand why Dad was taken from us when he was and why I had barely known him or why this or that. However, I would not count Dad out...I believe it was Winston Churchill that said, " There will be three surprises when you get to Heaven, the first one: You will see people you didn't think would be there, the second you will miss people that you thought would be there and the third surprise is you will be there." God is a heart surgeon...and he is ONLY interested in the condition of your heart..."...not by faith nor good works...lest any man boast.” You can be a bum...and God will look at your heart condition... “LIFE” turned out like it was planned…and I am sure I have not read the playbook…and I am also sure that even though life seems as if every play is a hail Mary pass…that each play is carefully calculated…it’s the execution we sometimes have difficulty with. Don’t worry big sister…everything is alright…and it is at THIS point in history we were supposed to be together. And this is the point in history (lucky us)…that we are supposed to complete this task of cataloging our families. There is more in store for us than we could ever imagine…and there is a reason that we are doing this website…reason’s that for now we have not a clue…but when those reason’s reveal themselves we will know. Only, you and I will understand the labor of love and the intense and demanding time it put on us. 100 years from now…someone will come across the site and it will be their time…just like 3 years ago when you and I discussed doing this…it was not the time. Life is a journey through time…and it all begins here:
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| Suzi |
posted 12/16/03 4:54 AM
Robin, I will be proud to call you my sister. In my family there is no such thing as half or step. We are all family no matter who our parents were and how they intermingled. I say welcome to this big happy family to you and Johnny. I will be glad to meet you someday and hope it is soon. Kevin, It wasn't so bad being raised with glenda or I. You were a girl once!!! LOL Love to all, Suzi |
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Kevin Airrington (Moderator) |
posted 12/16/03 5:58 AM
Yes...that's right see the pain I had to grow up with? When I was like 3 and 4 they use to dress me up in girls clothes and make-up...now you've done it...it's out! http://www.airrington.com |
| Suzi |
posted 12/16/03 7:24 AM
Sorry!!!! But, oh, you were so cute. "The Red-Headed Indian Girl" Luv ya, Sis |
| Robin Haven |
posted 12/16/03 7:41 AM
Suzi, Thank you! Robin, Another Sister http://airrington.com |
| Glenda Lucero |
posted 12/16/03 9:07 AM
Okay, Needed to get my 2 cents in here. Suzi I had to chuckle about Kev being a girl. I can still see it like it was yesterday. Robin, you are my sister and I like Suzi hope to meet you someday soon. Love to all |
| Kimmie |
posted 12/17/03 10:40 PM
Robin too me you will always be my "REAL" sister. I love you like you were never missing. Life isn't fair, but as Kevin said, "Define Fair". What is important is we have each other now. As I keep saying, lots not waste a single moment of it! Growing up has not been easy for me. I always felt different, and at one point or another did not and still with some do not see eye to eye with my siblings. Yet they are my sisters and brothers. Rather they know it or not, I love them dearly and try to block out the old and remember my favorite memory of each. So, I guess this is the place to start.... My greatest memory with Kevin...... My greatest memory is the day I became a Christian and how he held and comforted me. My greatest memory with Glenda.... Ice cream and Hairbrushes. Oh how she could doll me up! Then it was ice cream time! Suzi... There is way too many to list.... She has opened her home and heart too me so many times and cared for me after my terrible accident. We have had many laughs and cherished memories... Robin..... In a short time all memories are cherished. However my favorite is Kareokeing (SP?) with you to BUTTERMILK BISQUITS! Too funny! Last but not least, Johnny...... You are so tender and warm hearted! All I can say is GO GO GADGET Kleenex. : ) A little humor between Johnny and my husband. You know what I mean though Johnny! Through the rough times, good and bad, we are all family! No, maybe life isn't always fair! This is what was given of us and too me what a blessing! Thanks for sharing your site! |
| Robin Haven |
posted 12/18/03 3:37 AM
My Dearest Kimmie, aka Baby Sister, I want you to know how special you are to me Kimmie. I feel so lucky to have found you and Kevin. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of the blessing we were all given. We didn't have each other way back then but we have each other NOW! I want you to know that I remember when I called you the first time in the winter...it must of been late February. We talked like old friends...with so much to catch up on. I remember you and I sharing some of the sames views about our Dad. I was hostile myself. Like you, I felt cheated for the all years I didn't get to know Bob. I remember we talked, cried, and laughed. That long drive from Nevada to Idaho to meet you and your family was exciting and scary. I wasn't sure about that trip on the way but I knew as soon as I saw you - you were the baby sister I would come to love, cherish and support. I remember the karaoke singing myself. Unlike you, I CAN'T sing. I pray you never have the desire to blackmail me -because I would have to pay a heftie ransom to get that tape. We had a great time being silly and carefree. For now, my darling little baby sister, I will close this. Just know in my heart, I love you. http://airrington.com |
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