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| Author | Topic: need help |
| Joseph Bonnette |
posted 10/21/09 12:04 AM
From Joe Bonnette PO BOX 65555 St.Paul Mn. 55165 612-749-0072 www.sendmejesus.com 12000words@usa.com injehovahsimage@yahoo.com I wish to inform you I am more than willing to do pretty much anything no matter how hard or painful just to get a little change in my life. While I need money, it would not need include money or be limited to it. I am just dead in the water on all fronts it seems, I can’t even get any kind of fellowship. I am trying to get even a $200 beater car and can’t even get it, maybe God will work a miracle and find some way for me, in which case you will know if you ask later, but I do not expect anyone to even care I send this, even if they read it. Apparently I committed financial suicide because I gave money to a Nigerian woman, and no one including God, at least not enough to get my attention, tried to stop me. You may think you are part of the infallible network of integrity which will not so much as give out a little bit of fellowship to anyone, unless it is part of your “program” or something, but it’s only a matter of time and God will do the same to you. It’s hard ministering to needy people if you are not willing to do all you can, because you got to feel their misery, and a heart that is not willing to do, can not pray for anyone. If you could pray for the suffering in the world, then you could deal with the misery that comes from fellow-shipping with them, but you can not so much as make one little sacrifice no matter how “free” it is, if your whole heart, mind and soul is not into it. I doubt as much I will get so much as a little fellowship as I do anyone would give me a dime. It’s not a matter of money. money is medicine for a sick world, and I would be happier not having to do with it. But God has set up money as necessary, as much as a doctor gives a prescription as necessary. Apparently helping that Nigerian woman was equal in God’s eyes to throwing it away on some criminal, though I was convinced in my isolated from any kind of personal help from others heart, that she really needed it. No one so much as bothered to offer me the smallest ray of real Christian love as far as I could tell, even ever in my whole life, (unless it was truly a fleeting ray) unless God’s love is some cheap “how are you?” that does not want an answer. So there is no program in God’s mind that would allow him to bless me for giving money to that woman, even though my intentions were right. But maybe someday, who knows, it’s still theoretically possible, you will see I succeeded despite your not helping me, if that is what you will do. But why not see if God will help me without human help? After all I trusted in God, if God likes me in any way, he will have to rescue me. Let’s see if my faith is strong enough to trust in God without so much as one person in the world who has enough love to be a real brother or sister to me, or even helpful in a worldly way, though I do have some small benefit, who knows if it will last? If you say, “where’s your faith?” Then where is your faith to at least say something to me, and not just send an automated message or something. If you don’t have enough faith to do a small Christian duty, don’t judge me if I question whether I will ever amount to anything or not. Though it were possible only a small amount of people are like that, I am stuck in a situation now that I cannot find anyone at all for any reason. Why is that? It could be a lot of reasons, but as for now that is how it is. I made my website name sendmejesus.com, but only time will tell what God even thinks of it, though it is scriptural to pray for God to send you to the harvest fields. Who knows in this age of the falling away church if God even cares about preaching or ministering anymore?. I actually wonder sometimes if it is some “package deal” God is giving satan as his “parting gift,” for he knows his end is near. I know it can’t be so, but when I look at the waves of this raging sea, it makes me wonder. And the scammers are far exceeding any Christian on earth in forms of righteousness, even though it is an empty and false righteousness. I think Jesus means you got to exceed “forms” of godliness too, even if they deny the power of true honesty and integrity. I am just using this internet and can rarely access it, so maybe you will never hear from me for a long time after this. Luke 18:17 Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child shall in no wise enter therein.Matthew 5:20 For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.2 Timothy 3:5 Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away. http://www.sendmejesus,com missionary evangelical |
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